let justice and praise become my embrace

figuring out the art of losing myself to better know Him

in a little less than two weeks… Thursday, 21 December 06

Filed under: my first post,travel — joyunspeakable @ 10:29 am

…I will be sitting on an airplane heading to South Africa.

It seems unreal right now. I am at home, typing on our oh-so-slow computer, having just finished an episode of Friends on TV with my dad. Christmas is in FOUR days. (Speaking of which, I need to start getting gift ideas…)
I’m sure it won’t really hit me until I get off the plane in South Africa- when I realize that I know a grand total of 2 people…on the entire contintent of Africa! What a crazy feeling that’ll be. I’ll let you know what it’s like.
I have to keep reminding myself that God is in control. He is in control of my Visa, my packing, my 19-hour flight, and of course, my friendships back home. That is something that I’ve been preoccupied with this entire day. I cannot seem to stop thinking about the relationships that have begun to grow this past semester at Grove City. It is a lot harder to say “good-bye” than I would’ve imagined. It’s quite possibly the worst feeling in the world. Yes, I think it is.
I had a great conversation with my friend, Christine, the other day and we talked about letting go of people we love. Never an easy thing, but almost always the inevitable when it comes to loving people. People move in and out of our lives and most of the time we can’t do a thing about it! But we can’t let that stop us from loving outrageously (as my roommate, Ash, would say).
I guess it’s fair to say, then, that I am learning how to say good-bye to people and┬áleave them in God’s hands. Learning to surrender. Learning to trust that He really does know what’s best.
I’m excited to see what else God has to teach me in the next six months…